Time Flies

80 days.

Last night we had a big discussion - the biggest one yet - and we made a big decision. It was a decision I had already made in my heart, but one that we hadn't really talked about. And it needed to be talked about. So with that behind us, we move forward with love and a bright future.

I was supposed to drive down to Charlotte tomorrow to meet with the wedding coordinator but with the four consecutive weeks of travel that have just concluded, I cannot get from point A to point B right now. A phone conversation it is, and we will reach point B via telephone instead of in person.

I'm very tired. And I'm very overwhelmed. And life is quite messy, at the moment (literally and figuratively). But it is about to all change for the better, and I am so very, very, very excited about that. My heart is happy, even if my brain is on overdrive.

I should really be trying to eat better, too. That would help. That's always the first thing to go when life gets crazy.

The save the dates have long been sent. The invitations are sitting to my left, so beautiful and and perfect for us. The stamps are even there, just waiting to do their job. I love it! It's happening. This marriage that I've dreamt of. The funny thing, though, is that we are already living the marriage. What will change after we exchange vows? It will be official, and for some reason that matters to me so much. I will be his wife. He will be my husband. We will pronounce our love in front of God and the world.

For now, I must finalize with the caterer. I must track down my wedding dress - which is absolutely terrifying. The tailor was supposed to call me mid-September, and now it is October and he has not yet called. He needs a nudge, I suspect. I don't like that at all.

There are centerpieces to be finished and we have a plan to get the bridesmaids dresses and the flower girl/ring bearer suited up properly. I have so much done already, and I am so excited to finalize all of the details and then just ..... smoothly...... have the best wedding ever. Expectations may be a bit high. Aren't they always?